Assorted Thoughts

One. We've come full circle. We've been through all the birthdays and anniversaries and other wretched special occasions and still we're here. It's still all wrong. They should be here with us. But they're not, and we have to live their lives for them.
On Saturday I was supposed to go to the Franklins' with the other families for dinner but I couldn't be around here that day. It's asking too much. I spent the day with wonderful Adam and his wonderful family at his cousin's wedding and his aunt and uncle's cabin. I went waterskiing again and played badminton and had a bonfire and saw the stars and lived. How is that possible? I don't know.
I do know that the only reason I'm still functioning is because of Adam. Without him I would be lost. He makes me breathe again.
Stef, Amanda, and Luke taught me to love with all my heart. It hurts but it's worth it.